A week from now marks a year since I’ve graduated. Since that day, I haven’t applied to any companies, therefore not having any legit job. I have been somebody’s problem, a bum, a lazy person, an embarrassment to my family, whatever else you wanna call it, since then. I feel guilty most of the time that I’ve slacked this long because not only should I be helping in bringing home the bacon to this household (and at this point I should’ve be making more money already), but I feel like an embarrassment, too, having finished college with a degree that’s in demand, or so I think, and yet I refuse to work and give back to my good ol’ parents who have spent so much just to finish my studying.
What’s ironic is that during one of my classes back in college is that I was the one who had excelled best (in portfolio class, my panelist wanted to hire me on the spot but I politely declined.. WHY SELF, WHY?!), and performed best professionally-wise (is that even a term?) in my OJT class.
I have my reasons why I don’t want to commit to working at any company, for full-time, yet. Primarily a health issue is to blame here. Then again, I’m not exactly doing my body a favor here at home since I have failed on my self-imposed “diet” and “sleeping habits” that I should be strictly following. You only live once, right?