They’re singing deck the halls
But it’s not like Christmas at all
I remember when you were here
All the fun we had last year
Christmas (Baby Please Come Home) – Deathcab For Cutie
Does this signal a sad Christmas for me? XD I don’t know, I’m not sure.. but I think this pretty much fits my ‘mood’ for the holidays.
PS: I’m not waiting for anyone to “come home”. 😛
Looking at my previous entry, I didn’t really make my December progressive in terms of “archiving” what happened. Hahah, my last update was December 8 and my recent is December 20.. wow a BIG leap indeed. Do I owe anyone 10 hours of story-telling of what happened to me in the past few weeks? *hesitant* Yes. But I know most people have Plurk accounts up to this time, so just add me and you will be updated 24/7, lol. 😉 I don’t add back people I have never heard of.. maybe I should put my account on Public now, so that I’ll have fans or something. Or not. :))
Christmas break started yesterday for me. Last day of the term was yesterday and I stayed till afternoon waiting for my friends to get their course cards for their NSTP subject so I got to hangout with them for a little while. I’m content with my grades.. yet there were times I thought that the marks I got were unfair (on SOME subjects).. on the bright side, NO SUBJECTS TO REPEAT! Read on..
<spoiler ‘Life is really unfair, or maybe I have the 2nd term jinx’ ‘Life goes on’>
Honestly, from the start I thought I was going to fail 1 subject.. but eventually realizing after getting my other plates from other “manual art rendering” subjects, thought I would fail 4 (out of 7 subjects I am taking this term).. but thank God I got passing marks! Prayers do work, zomg. 🙂 Mhmm.. My grades are far too embarrassing to post here so I’ll leave it at that. There were times that I thought my grade in this one subject was really unfair.. not to brag but I think my final project was better than the others. Oh well, I suppose that.. the weekly plates we did really makes an impact on the final grading. I felt like a loser anticipating a 3.0 but I got a .5 grade lower than that. 🙁 The professor tried to make me feel good by saying my final project ranked #3 on the class, but I didn’t feel any encouragement on my part. And he said that grades are just fancy decorations.. WRONG. It’s different from a student’s perspective. These “grades” could make our lives better, could give us this happy feeling inside of us, could make us DLs and makes us proud of ourselves. And when I told my mom about it she told me, I easily give up.. well, yeah, sort of. Sure, s’long as I’m still alive there’s still hope.. but man, I’m always unappreciated in my “field”. I’ve always just shrugged off the feeling. 😐
I accept the grades I got on these subjects because I know I deserve them, though I was surprised that I got a 2.5 for my Color rendering class.. teehee. Especially on Computer Graphics.. I’m effin glad I’m over that subject..
Well, yeah I really do feel I’m always, somehow jinxed every 2nd term of the year.. I’ll get to prove it next year when I’m in third year, lol. I guess that’s just life.. you get the sucky profs.. or paswertehan nalang sa profs. Some may call this kind of experience a challenge, to come out of their comfort zone and face challenges because when they graduate, they WILL come across people like them in the business industry. I’m not ready for that.. I just wanna graduate and BUM! KIDDING! Gee, I sound like a happy-go-lucky person don’t I? XD I’m not, promise. 😛
Not much productivity happening on my Christmas break.. I’ve read a book, downloaded movies (but haven’t watched them), been PLURKING (I’m trying to resist, promise), ate less.. Slept alot. What I lacked in the previous term was SLEEP and I plan to taking it back, lol, seriously! Right now I’m brainstorming for a new layout.. I want a big layout for this site, this is too small. 😛 And not to mention, really old. HAHA.
Suddenly I feel like the Grinch. I haven’t been to any Christmas parties, the family is not in the “mood” for the holiday, I haven’t been in the mood myself (though at the start of the month I was all “Yay it’s December, Christmas and breaks!! WHEEEE~!” mood), I haven’t bought much presents and gave any to my friends (I only gave one gift to a friend recently).. The air may be cold but the Christmas spirit is really not around me. :)) My mom will leave for Bohol tomorrow to take care of some things regarding my grandma (her mother).. she’ll be back on the 24th. IDK, that’s kinda sad.. she won’t be around before Christmas.. but I hope she gets here in the morning, so it’ll be fun! But I understand, ok ok.. It’s the only time she’ll get to spend the holidays with her/them. So yeah.
I hope my next update will be eventful, hahaha. Hope everyone’s Christmas will be fun and well-spent. I want to eat lots of food.. but hmm.. the cooking sucks here lately. :hmph: And I’m sick of eating fastfoods. I think my Kidney’s starting to get worse with my Fastfood frenzy.